Who am I?

Who am I? Someone who is afraid Scared Absolutely terrified of myself I am my own worst enemy I walk without any purpose at all I am nonexistent in everyone’s eyes My words have no power My sight is clouded by doses of whatever I can get my hands on I am an empty void…

Breath

Breath Take a deep breath Feel your surroundings Close your eyes Let all fear leave your body This only happens once Your innocence will be no more Before you make this decision ask yourself Is this the right setting? Is this the right time? Is it even worth it? If you answered yes to all…

Drink Up

Drink Up One more shot wouldn’t hurt would it? Just one more drink I’m doing this because they said it was a good idea They said that it would heal my wounds They said that it would make me forget my problems But why do I feel worse? Why with every harsh sip I feel…

Wake Up

Wake Up Get ready for another day of downfall Get ready for everyone to disappoint you once more Get ready for the same constant stream of distress Get ready for every touch to be completely numb Get ready for your tears to fall even harder Get ready for that smile on your face to be…

My Hope

My Hope My hope It doesn’t rely on myself But on the actions of others It relies on the judgment I have for people It relies on dependability It relies on snakes, wolves and vultures It relies on anything that is not It relies on getting slapped in the face It relies on being used…

This is fun

This is fun So we’re just going to pretend that everything is okay I’m used to putting on a façade around others anyway At least I make it look good right? Oh, is that not what you want? Is this not what you asked for? Is there more you desire from this falsified sense of…

Routine…

ROUTINE Things become routine once you start to accept your surroundings Everyday activities seem to have no meaning to them You only hang around others to rid the pain of feeling alone It only works for a moment Sadly enough the routine of all this makes it even worse on yourself Now you’re trying to…

I Have No One

I have no one Only myself and my music Everyone else seems to be preoccupied with other individuals So I sit here and wait Waiting for my phone to ring Hoping that I get a notification Eager for someone to talk with But nothing Silence So I wait I grow impatient I stress my frustration…

My One & Only

Love Heartache Happiness Misery Who shall I share it with Who can bare the confusion that is my life with me Who can honestly look me in the face and tell me that they love me but also not be afraid to punish me as well I want someone who is not only as strong…

WEIRDO

Words are no longer doing me any justice. I can’t draw At least not what I want to I believe I am going crazy Or that’s what I’ve come up with to make it easier/bearable I’m going to read this again and again Each line getting more disgusting Each line harder to stomach Each fucking…

Reposting this gold I found

​ I’m healing dammit! Drinking tea, Meditating, Therapy, Learning to notice and let go, Frustration, Anger, Doubt, I want to scream, Scrubbed my bathroom with bleach, Feeling ill, Drank tea, Painted a mural, Therapy group thinks I’m too nice, Got my feelings hurt, boohoo, Everything hurts my feelings, I want to scream! Frustrated, I want […]…

5:23 AM

I cannot sleep  I can only think about deep thoughts and sad memories I hate being alone Unfortunately my body is so accustomed to being so It shouldn’t be normal for me to have to go through so much 5:27 AM I think i’ll try to get some sleep now Once again falling asleep to…